Today, I had my physciologist appointment ... talking with a shrink was interesting to say the least. It's hard for me to open up to people i don't know.
I find myself lost and confused most of the time and feeling like I dont belong. My parents were nice to let me come back home...i cannot help but to love them for all that they do and continue to do for me...i feel like i dont deserve the opportunity that they're helping me to get.
Its truely hard to feel anything other than worthless. I feel like a complete failure and i'm not sure where or what i am going to be able to do in order to get myself back together.
This past Saturday, i couldn't have been with two better people. We went through a corn maze which in itself was fun and exciting....it was nice to just get my mind off everything that is going on. I really cannot thank them enough for being with me...
My doctors are worried about me being alone. I am too. Although I cannot honestly say that anything "bad" will happen, I guess I cannot guaranty anything "won't" happen either. The feeling of being a torn piece of paper....not sure where or which way I'm bending.
Right now, I'm getting ready to go to dinner with a couple fag-hags....I love 'em.... Kim & Faith...great people...
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